Wednesday, December 29, 2010


I think the biggest disease the world suffers from in this day and age is the disease of people feeling unloved. I know that I can give love for a minute, for half an hour, for a day, for a month, but I can give. I am very happy to do that, I want to do that.

- Lady Diana

Tuesday, December 14, 2010

Thursday, November 11, 2010

Bukit Cahaya

thanks to Syaiful Rijal Anis Shaidi & Aliyah Saad for the bicycle ride around Bukit Cahaya n making my day brighter, & to Jasmin Anis, for lunch at Pecal~ 
photos are from aliyah's tumblr

 tapi, gambaq time makan kat pecal ayam padang jawa xdak~

Sunday, November 7, 2010

my head is..going in seems like..there are stars in the sky..or is it what i hope to see instead?

mixed up

rasa serabut la pulak
nk kena p setel lesen L
tp tgh pokai gila..
nk mintak mama n papa
kedah dok bah
mesti nk kena pakai duit byk kn?
aku la..nak mkn pn payah
duit tadak..
rasa nak balik kedah
tapi duit tadak!
semua duit!
ish..nk kena bayaq duit umah plak..
mcm na ni?
dh tu..
rasa besalah kat org lg
depa dok payah kat sana
aku bersenang lenang kat sini

apa nk buat ni?
n dh mcm ni
rasa mcm semua org dok push!
walhal dak pon!
rasa suffocated!
need air!

Ask me anything

Ask me anything

Saturday, November 6, 2010

Bah,Banjir,Flood,etc etc

Alhamdulillah, tadi call mama tanya pasai rumah..
dia kata dah surut sikit dh..lega sgt dengaq..
sedih memang sedih..tapi aku bersyukur la rumah aku n family aku
xkena teruk sangat..abeh kuat pn pokok2 mampoih ja kot..
syukur sebab semua selamat..
kalau nak banding dengan depa yg ayaq naik sampai bumbung tu..lagi kesian..kan?
so harap2 keadaan kat sana semakin elok..semua di harap dugaan dari Nya.

Thursday, October 28, 2010

of Paramore, Taylor Swift and Jason Mraz

"You are the best thing that’s ever been mine, cause you and i both are the only exception, cant you see that you belong with me and I'm yours"

crossed my mind out of no where..
thanks to Paramore, Taylor Swift and Jason Mraz

i cant seem to get this out of my head

this song by Paramore is stuck in my head..
i just like this..=)

The Only Exception

when i was younger i saw
my daddy cry
and curse at the wind
he broke his own heart
and I watched
as he tried to reassemble it
and my momma swore
that she would
never let herself forget
and that was the day that I promised
I'd never sing of love
if it does not exist

But Darlin...
you are the only exception
you are the only exception
you are the only exception
you are the only exception
maybe i know somewhere
deep in my soul
that love never lasts
and we've got to find other ways
to make it alone
keep a straight face
and i've always lived like this, keeping a comfortable distance
and up until now i had sworn to myself that I'm content with loneliness
because none of it was ever worth the risk

well you are the only exception
you are the only exception
you are the only exception
you are the only exception
 i've got a tight grip on reality
but i can't let go of what's in front of me here
i know you're leaving in the morning when you wake up
leave me with some kind of proof it's not a dream

oh oh oh
 you are the only exception
you are the only exception
you are the only exception
you are the only exception

  you are the only exception
you are the only exception
you are the only exception
you are the only exception

and I'm on my way to believing
oh and I'm on my way to believing

i mean seriously, i can cry listening to this..

Monday, October 25, 2010

Letters to Juliet

As most my friends would know
i am into cartoons and love stories,
so recently i watched this incredible movie
Letters to Juliet
i find this movie very sweet

so here is a short summary of the movie

An American girl discovers a love letter that changes her life in this romantic comedy starring Amanda Seyfried and Vanessa Redgrave. The setting is Verona, Italy -- the city where Romeo and Juliet first met. In Verona, there's a wall where the lovelorn leave notes, hoping that Juliet will answer their inquiries about love. Sophie (Seyfried) is part of a team of volunteers (the secretaries of Juliet) who respond to the letters. When Sophie answers a letter from 1957, the woman who wrote it (Redgrave) decides to seek out the one that got away, and romance starts to blossom all around.

so this is what Claire wrote 50 years ago, in the movie, to Juliet

I didn't go to him, Juliet. I didn't go to Lorenzo. His eyes were so full of trust I promised I'd meet him and run away together because my parents don't approve. But, instead, I left him waiting for me below our tree - waiting and wondering where I was. I'm in Veronoa now. I return to London in the morning and I am so afraid. Please, Juliet tell me what I should do. My heart is breaking and I have no one else to turn to. Love, Claire 

so this is what Sophie answered to Claire as Juliet
Dear Claire, What and If are two words as non-threatening as words can be. But put them together side-by-side and they have the power to haunt you for the rest of your life: What if? What if? What if? I don't know how your story ended but if what you felt then was true love, then it's never too late. If it was true then, why wouldn't it be true now? You need only the courage to follow your heart. I don't know what a love like Juliet's feels like - love to leave loved ones for, love to cross oceans for but I'd like to believe if I ever were to feel it, that I will have the courage to seize it. And, Claire, if you didn't, I hope one day that you will. All my love, Juliet 

hi blogspot.

i am now very much addicted to tumblr.
ever since my friend, Aliyah, introduced me to tumlbr
and eventually successfully persuaded me to join tumblr,
i have been tumblr-ing almost all the time.
i mean..GILA CIWI!

so banyak la dok abehkan masa kat sana
tiba2 ber bahasa malaysia plak
here is my tumblr address

Thursday, October 21, 2010


i am living a life of uncertainties..
feeling unsure and not knowing of what is to become
dreaming of things that might end up hurting me ,breaking me
fearing things that may make my life worth while

holding on to hanging lines
that might break ant any point
having hope as i go along the road
but is scared to grab the chances
that is dangling about..
just floating in mid-air
waiting to be touched.

giving in to temptations
unable to resist
the pure source of destruction

i was checking my post and i saw this draft..
the thing is..i couldn't seem to remember writing this
and why i wrote this in the first place.
so i decided just to publish this anyway

-zakian sulhi

Tuesday, October 19, 2010

just stoping by

hello blogspot..
i missed you too

i know i haven't been around much lately
mostly due to the fact that i am hooked on to tumblr..
haha...but that does not mean that i don't love you anymore..
because i do..

haha...but for now..
i don't have much heart felt issues
to be said in be typed and published here..
there is just too much going on for me to even think of perfect sentences..
to pick out the right words..

but one thing for sure..
is that
i will be back..
to write my heart out
here...where i always have..
until the time comes


Tuesday, October 5, 2010

the new guy

yesterday, monday, october 4th 2010,

i got a text message from my sister saying

Muhammad Syahir Irfan selamat dilahirkan. 
Fadley n Unaizah"

i was so happy that i called and text all those who came to mind..telling them that there is a new guy in the family..=)

i wanted to upload his photo..but i feel that i will let his mother have the satisfaction of uploading it first. <3

Monday, October 4, 2010

having you

Having you in my life is like having stars in the sky and having money
in my pocket. means that you light me up and giving me assurance that
all will be okay. ♥ =)

Friday, September 10, 2010

stay strong, please

it is hard to put on a brave face when your heart is aching with agony
but you know you just have to try..
for the one you hold dear in your heart
you just know you have to try
stay strong zakian, please

Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri!

Bersempena dgn sambutan yang sentiasa dinantikan oleh rakyat Islam Malaysia dan seluruh dunia..
saya ingin memohon keampunan diatas segala apa kesalahan atau kesilapan yg telah saya lakukan dan menyebab kan hati anda semua terguris, walau sekecil mana sekali pun..sesungguhnya yang baik itu datangnya dari Allah s.w.t. dan yang buruk itu hasil dari diri saya sendiri.

Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri =)

btw gambar ni amek kat depan rumah..sgt kagum dgn bunga matahari yg besar dan sihat!

Sunday, August 29, 2010

stop doing that

will you stop reminding people of their mistakes?
yes everyone knows they have made tonnes of stupid mistakes
but they dont need you to remind them every time..
some people have accepted that they have indeed done wrong in their past
and some people are trying to move on

how can that happen when you keep reminding them that they did wrong!
please only hurts and kills the joy of life.
it might be funny to you..
but for some people it isn't.

Thursday, August 26, 2010

24 Things You Might Be Saying Wrong

i read this article on i thought i could share it with you~

24 Things You Might Be Saying Wrong

  • by Reader's Digest Magazine, on Wed Aug 18, 2010 10:23am PDT
The Reader's Digest Version of all those confusing words and seemingly random rules you missed in English class.

You never mean: Could care less

You always mean: Couldn't care less

Why: You want to say you care so little already that you couldn't possibly care any less. When the Boston Celtics' Ray Allen said, "God could care less whether I can shoot a jump shot," we know he meant exactly the opposite because 1) God has other things on his mind, and 2) God is a Knicks fan.

You might say: Mano a mano

You might mean: Man-to-man

Why: You don't speak Spanish by adding vowels to the end of English words, as a columnist describing father–teenage son relationships seemed to think when he wrote, "Don't expect long, mano a mano talks." Mano a mano (literally, "hand to hand") originated with bullfighting and usually refers to a knock-down, drag-out direct confrontation.

You might say: Less

You might mean: Fewer

Why: In general, use fewer when you're specifying a number of countable things ("200 words or fewer"); reserve less for a mass ("less than half"). So when you're composing a tweet, do it in 140 characters or fewer, not less.

You never mean: Hone in

You always mean: Home in

Why: Like homing pigeons, we can be single-minded about finding our way to a point: "Scientists are homing in on the causes of cancer." Hone means "to sharpen": "The rookie spent the last three seasons honing his skills in the minor leagues." But it's easy to mishear m's and n's, which is probably what happened to the Virginia senator who said, "We've got to hone in on cost containment." If you're unsure, say "zero in" instead.

You might say: Bring

You might mean: Take

Why: The choice depends on your point of view. Use bring when you want to show motion toward you ("Bring the dog treats over here, please"). Use take to show motion in the opposite direction ("I have to take Rufus to the vet"). The rule gets confusing when the movement has nothing to do with you. In those cases, you can use either verb, depending on the context: "The assistant brought the shot to the vet" (the vet's point of view); "the assistant took the shot to the doctor" (the assistant's).

You might say: Who

You might mean: Whom

Why: It all depends. Do you need a subject or an object? A subject (who) is the actor of the sentence: "Who left the roller skates on the sidewalk?" An object (whom) is the acted-upon: "Whom are you calling?" Parents, hit the Mute button when Dora the Explorer shouts, "Who do we ask for help when we don't know which way to go?"

You almost never mean: Brother-in-laws, runner-ups, hole in ones, etc.

You almost always mean: Brothers-in-law, runners-up, holes in one, etc.

Why: Plurals of these compound nouns are formed by adding an s to the thing there's more than one of (brothers, not laws). Some exceptions: words ending in ful (mouthfuls) and phrases like cul-de-sacs.

You almost never mean: Try and

You almost always mean: Try to

Why: Try and try again, yes, but if you're planning to do something, use the infinitive form: "I'm going to try to run a marathon." Commenting on an online story about breakups, one woman wrote, "A guy I dated used to try and impress me with the choice of books he was reading." It's no surprise that the relationship didn't last.

You almost never mean: Different than

You almost always mean: Different from

Why: This isn't the biggest offense, but if you can easily substitute from for than (My mother's tomato sauce is different from my mother-in-law's), do it. Use than for comparisons: My mother's tomato sauce is better than my mother-in-law's.

You almost never mean: Beg the question

You almost always mean: Raise the question

Why: Correctly used, "begging the question" is like making a circular argument (I don't like you because you're so unlikable). But unless you're a philosophy professor, you shouldn't ever need this phrase. Stick to "raise the question."

You might say: More than

You can also say: Over

Why: The two are interchangeable when the sense is "Over 6,000 hats were sold." We like grammarian Bryan Garner's take on it: "The charge that over is inferior to more than is a baseless crotchet."

You almost never mean: Supposably

You almost always mean: Supposedly

Why: Supposably is, in fact, a word—it means "conceivably"—but not the one you want if you're trying to say "it's assumed," and certainly not the one you want if you're on a first date with an English major or a job interview with an English speaker.
You might say: All of

You probably mean: All

Why: Drop the of whenever you can, as Julia Roberts recently did, correctly: "Every little moment is amazing if you let yourself access it. I learn that all the time from my kids." But you need all of before a pronoun ("all of them") and before a possessive noun ("all of Julia's kids").

You might say: That

You might mean: Which

Why: "The money that is on the table is for you" is different from "the money, which is on the table, is for you." That pinpoints the subject: The money that is on the table is yours; the money in my pocket is mine. Which introduces an aside, a bit of extra information. If you remove "which is on the table," you won't change the meaning: The money is for you (oh, and unless you don't want it, it's on the table). If the clause is necessary to your meaning, use that; if it could safely be omitted, say which.

You never mean: Outside of

You always mean: Outside

Why: These two prepositions weren't meant for each other. Perfectly acceptable: "Wearing a cheese-head hat outside Wisconsin will likely earn you some stares and glares (unless you're surrounded by Green Bay Packers fans, that is)."

You might say: Each other

You might mean: One another

Why: Tradition says that each other should be used with two people or things, and one another with more than two, and careful speakers should follow suit: "The three presenters argued with one another over who should announce the award, but Ann and Barbara gave each other flowers after the ceremony." (By the way, if you need the possessive form of either one when writing that business letter, it's always each other's and one another's; never end with s'.)

PLUS: 10 Dos and Don't of Corporate Culture

8 Confusing Pairs

leery, wary: suspicious
weary: tired

farther: for physical distance
further: for metaphorical distance or time

principle: rule
principal: of your school

compliment: nice thing to say
complement: match

continual: ongoing but intermittent
continuous: without interruption

stationary: stands still
stationery: paper

imply: to suggest a meaning
infer: to draw meaning from something

affect: typically a verb, meaning "to act upon or cause an effect"; as a noun, it's "an emotional response"
effect: typically a noun, meaning "something produced," like a special effect; as a verb, "to bring about," as in "to effect change"

Wednesday, August 25, 2010

kelas okestra.........

today's orchestra class is again without any trombone parts...
so we trombonists..and tubist..
went to practice chorale works instead,...

now we are taking a break..
so i have got a chance to actually post this..

as u know..well...some of you know..
i like to draw
and i like to draw mermaids the most!

so with this free time i have..i would like to show you
my latest drawing...
of mermaids..

hope you like it,,
do commet


Monday, August 23, 2010

have you ever?

have you ever...

wake up late in the morning,
and panicked because you think that you are late for school/work..
and only realize that you are actually hours early from being late
because it was actually late evening and you just woke up from a nap?

have you ever...

fix yourself a cup of something to drink..
lets say hot coffee,
and you put in extra sugar to make it a bit more sweeter that usual..
but you took your first sip..
you were surprised to find out that
you accidentally added salt instead of sugar!!!!!

have you ever...

wake up in the morning..
as you always do..
took a bath..
dress up for work/school..
and realize that it is actually a Saturday morning......

have you ever....

felt so hungry that you think you can eat three meals at once...
but you end up eating half of your first dish..

have you ever....

felt so sure of something that you know is right..
and you debated with your friends
to defend the truth af that something that you are so sure of...
and your friends finally agree with you..
when you got home..
you realized that you 
are WRONG!!!

have you ever...

gossip about someone with your friends..
and not realize that, that particular someone is standing right behind you............

have you ever....

walk so confidently in front of a crowd..
and slipped..and fell on your face....

have you ever...

dress up in front of a mirror..
and you feel as if you look extraordinarily beautiful/handsome..
and you went to meet up with you friend..
and the first thing that your friend said was..
"what the hell are you wearing?"

have you ever...

got an idea to write about something..
while you were outside with your friends..
and you were really excited to write it and publish it to your blog..
and when you finally got home..
you log on to your blogspot account..
and you completely forgotten what was it that you wanted to write about.......

and when you finally remembered...
you go on and type it down..
and feel that...
what you are writing seems pointless.....
and you just stopped..
and log on to facebook instead..

-Zakian Sulhi-

Sunday, August 22, 2010

Tried Something New

there was a PC and Book Fair held at the InTEC Great Hall recently, organized by the TESL students of uitm, i think..there were lots of interesting books that day..they were pretty much cheap as well..
but that is not the main thing here..the thing is..there was a shoe designing competition, where u have to register for RM2..they'll give u a form for each registration..together with the form, is a shoe template, where u need to draw, hand-drawn designs i took the chance and entered the competition...and to my surprise, ppl seems to like my design..huhu..which leads to me submitting three more designs after that..the thing is..i was surprised to find out that i actually enjoyed doing that..i really really not sure if i can win this thing...but i really enjoyed it..=) 

Monday, August 16, 2010

happy birthday

i have not updated my blog with my thoughts lately
i guess it is due to lots of assignments and tests and classes and group discussions..
etc etc etc

i really want to write again.
to be able to pour my heart out
but i can't seem to be able to put much words together
to create beautiful scentences anymore..
well for now that is..i hope..

here are some pics of my birthday celebration
with baskin 31 robbins genting peeps..

actually its more of the pic of my bday cake
the rest of the photos are with other ppl..
since i was the subject of the pictures of the day..hahaha

here are some photos of my stay at genting

kak umey opening the doors for me

bukak puasa...i like this!

i think she looks nice in this photo
maiza umey hermy zakian

Wednesday, July 28, 2010

Can you see what i see?

Watch closely...


Warning: Do not view while drinking.



Can you tell the difference between a horse and a frog?

Organization Chart

When top level guys look down, they see only shit;

When bottom level guys look up, they see only assholes...

Of TV and Handphone

i got this email from my sister..i find this hilarious..
so i thought of sharing this here

Diff between Wife & Girlfriend
Some people say:

Wife is a HARIMAU ...............
Girlfriend is HARI HARI MAHU
And some say:

Wife is like TV , Girlfriend is like Handphone (HP)

At home watch TV , Go out bring HP .

No money, sell TV . Got money change HP .

Sometimes enjoy TV but most of the time play with HP .

TV free for life but HP, if you don't pay, the services will be terminated .

TV is big , bulky and most of the time old but HP is cute, slim, curvy and very portable at any time.

Operational cost for TV is often acceptable but for HP is high and often demanding .

Most Important, TV got remote but HP don't have .

Last but not least.......

TV do not have virus but HP have VIRUS ......

Once get it, HABIS LAH...

So better choose TV la



(Passing requires only 3 correct answers out of 10!)

Only total thicko's will fail !!

1) How long did the Hundred Years' War last?

2) Which country makes Panama hats?

3) From which animal do we get cat gut?

4) In which month do Russians celebrate the October Revolution?

5) What is a camel's hair brush made of?

6) The Canary Islands in the Pacific are named after what animal?

7) What was King George VI's first name?

8) What color is a purple finch?

9) Where are Chinese gooseberries from?

10) What is the color of the black box in a commercial airplane?

Remember, you need only 3 correct answers to P ass.

Check your answers below.


1) How long did the Hundred Years War last ? 116 years

2) Which country makes Panama hats ? Ecuador

3) From which animal do we get cat gut ? Sheep and Horses

4) In which month do Russians celebrate the October Revolution ? November

5) What is a camel's hair brush made of ? Squirrel fur

6) The Canary Islands in the Pacific are named after what animal ? Dogs

7) What was King George VI's first name ? Albert

8) What color is a purple finch ? Crimson

9) Where are Chinese gooseberries from ? New Zealand

10) What is the color of the black box in a commercial airplane ? Orange (of course!)

What do you mean, you failed?!!

Me, too...!!!

(And if you try to tell me you passed, you lie!)

Pass this on to some "brilliant" people, so that they may feel useless too!

Sunday, July 25, 2010

one of those sleepless nights

i am not able to sleep...
although i know i have to..
one of the many reasons for me to do so is..
because i've got to go to "Modul LDK" tomorrow
i really don't feel like it but i have to anyway
aih..UiTM..why must you do this to us???
anyways..i cant seem to get any sleep
probably, its due to the fact that i have slept the whole afternoon..
so i cant seem to close my eyes now..
so i feel a little inspired to do some drawing..
here are my works of this sleepless night
some of the many Malaysian school bands
the color guards from Kedah, Sasband, Keat Hwa Band & Sahc Band =)
thanks for reading =)

honestly i think rhis blog is not that mych worth reading
but im keeping it anyway =))

Saturday, July 24, 2010


as for now..
i feel nothing
i dont think about much
im not sure what is going to happen
im not o sure whats going on
im just living my life as it is
day by day

is that a good thing?
i honestly dont think so
but truth be told
i am worried
i am thinking about a lot of things just hoping that
in time the puzzle pieces will fall into place
and i will be able to see the picture clearly

Monday, July 19, 2010

trying to grab hold of the situation

"Ras - merujuk kepada kelompok manusia yang mempunyai ciri-ciri persamaan dari segi fizikal, warna kulit, sifat biologi...."

aihh..somehow i can't seem to absorb the fact that i am actually writing all those crap in my note book..i mean..i was supposed to be done with school, classes etc etc...
but here i am anyway writing notes into my book..educational notes that is..=)

yep..this can only mean one thing..i have decided to actually further my studies to a whole new level..
as some may know..i am now a bachelor in music education student..and i am proud of that fact!!
although its back to waking up early in the morning, wearing formal wear on mondays, and having to see the security guards everyday, i actually am, honestly, very much indeed, excited to start being a student again!!

truth be told..i really miss my times on genting highlands..but..i have to think about my future right?
haha..well..classes have started, and is going well so far..i actually enjoy writing and scribbling notes on pieces of paper..hahaha...*rasa pandai~ i really hope that this feeling will go on till the end of my degree course!

well..thats it for now..
because i am actually in my classroom waiting for our lecturer who seemed to be missing for the last hour..and im starting to get tired of waiting im gonna leave..
till next time =)

-mental note to self - post something on the recent Natcomp =)

Thursday, June 24, 2010


it has been a while since i post anything at all here..and a lot have happened..i have a draft that concludes everything..but its not yet done..i will post it some other time..

right now.i am feeling scared and so damn happy when i found out that i have completed my diploma program..and i think, my pointer isn't that bad after all

but the thing is,im not sure if i am ready to further my studies to the next level of not sure whether this is what i really want..i mean..what if i screw up? what would i do then? what would my parents feel? im just not that all talented like my friends, im not that bright..

but,  what would i do..if i didn't continue my studies?with the career world right now, education certs are damn important....i am really really scared..what do i do?!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Tuesday, May 18, 2010

why can't u c?

some ppl should really know that they dont have what it takes
and im talking to this person singing at the patio bar behind baskin robbins here at first world plaza
it is annoying!

i mean these ppl sings every monday!
i think they are filling in for the other group who sings every other nights
note that the other group are way better then these ppl..
im not sayin that im a good performer..
but..they are just pushing themselves too hard!
and i dont think they rehearse much
since they always end up coming in earlier or later than they were supposed to

and the bad part is..most of the songs they perform are those songs that i like..
and im starting to not like them..aishh..

not much point here..just babbling

im way up in the clouds..

it has been a while since i last posted anything here

truth be told,, i just don't feel like posting anything
up to this very moment goes
im working right now..just for a while though..
as my sister needs extra hands here at 
the First World's Baskin Robbins

it is fun even when the ice creams
can be really cruel to you and your wrist.

i am having a great time so far
spending time with my sister
haishh..she's been through a lot..
* be strong dear sister!!
basically i wake up everyday
walk to the store
scoop sweet delicious treats for the 
sometimes annoying customers (kdg2 tu rasa mcm nk sepak ja)
who came from everywhere
mostly arabians, indians and chinese..
they r so annoying..haha..maybe it is just the way they are right
who am i to judge
i mean
for all i know i might be an annoying customer to someone..

after the work is done..
get back home..
wash up (sejukkkk!!!!!!!)
and eat while wathing something on the laptop with my sister
mostly Gossip Girl =))))

but as everything goes..
my time up here is comming to an end..
but who knows
i might just continue..

but honestly i miss alor setar and my friends!!!
sabaq sat nohh..nak balik dah ~

Monday, April 19, 2010

it is okay

sometimes we have to tell ourselves that it is okay to be scared instead of putting on a brave face and acting like a hero all the time..

we need to learn that it is okay to shed a tear whenever we feel down and sad..instead of covering up our hurt with laughter and a smile on our faces..

we have to understand that it is okay for us to feel vulnerable because sometimes it is better to open up to these feelings rather that suppressing them all the time and end up exploding like a ticking time bomb

we have to know that it is better to be able to show the side of us that we try to keep secret rather than hurting ourselves even more by hiding and pretending to be okay

i keep telling myself this..yet i sometimes fail to do so

Sunday, April 18, 2010

another sleepless night

it has been ages since i last post an entry in this blog...
and i know that i dont really post anything of much importance to this blog...i mean..i started to write in here just because i was having trouble sleeping one fateful sleepless as i am at the moment. not going through any  emotional tides right for just at more tense im my system..

im back to staying up late at night..watching movies or just surfing the net.haha...and waking up late..because i have no more commitment at the moment..

my classes are over..
i have performed for 30 mins for my showcase,,well..i guess you can say im pretty much free right now..i finally have time to keep the house in place..after few weeks, or month of living in a wreck!

i really wish i can get back to alor setar..
i miss home badly!!!

but my bank account is pretty much empty right now..


a lot have been happening in my life since i posted my last entry...

finished my subjects in UiTM..

done with diploma showcase (o know i keep on saying this again and again..)

i hugged my father on his birthday

had dinner with my family together with lily..

have a new obsession with pet fishes!! in which i manage to somehow influence my friends to love fishes as well..

i mean so much ahave been happening..i don't really remember everything..but yeah..a lot have been happening..hahaha..

as much as things are moving, i still miss the good old days, where life is much. much simpler..haha..

ohh...i mis hanging out with my friends as well...must meet up soon!!

Friday, March 19, 2010

just babbling

im not so good at that..
really i mean not that not that good as a kind of selfish in a way..
i like to make friends,,even when some people thinks im weird..i just can't help;s in my nature..
how i was brought up by my family..

i dont know much about whatever it is that is happening in the world today
i love to dream..imagining things can happen the way i intend them to..
because i like to see the good side of things..
believing that life is just simple and sweet..
but they don't always come true..the bitterness of life always finds its way to sink in slowly
but that doesn't stop me from dreaming..
i mean..must i stop dreaming just because im getting older?
i do not think so..

i always think that i cherish all that others have done for me..
but to be honest..i sometimes forgot..
i only human..but that doesn't mean that i don appreciate them..
because i know i do..and to me..that is what's important

and right now i dont even know what im talking about..
so i guess i will stop now..
see u again..soon perhaps..

Saturday, March 6, 2010

mood gone insane~

something is wrong today
i don't know what exactly,
but seems like something is just off.
even when im typing this out.
the cursor  tends to get stuck in one place


Friday, March 5, 2010

of anak ayam and wau bulan

im just bored~
im at the faculty right now
been working on my creativity piece

..need to get it done as soon as possible
huahhhh.....cayok!! cayok!!!

Thursday, February 25, 2010

serba serbi apa jadi lately

i am right now at studio a, room num 10
on my laptop,
using the intec wireless.
playing bubble spinner!!

 im just took my midterm studio exam,
yesterday actually
it was okay i guess..
i mean
i expected worse..

showcase 3 april!
insanity strikes!!
hopefully semua akan okay..

last week was my mid semester break
went back to as..
had lots of fun!!
but my heart was all for my studio exam

what happened during the mid sem break!

-my brother, zakwan's birthday
-spent time with my family
-went to school to practice with awie
-meet up with my friends
-band camp
-learned a few colour guard tricks
-went to my friends wedding ceremony
-took lots of pictures

Tuesday, February 23, 2010

the other side of the flowery meadow

we've got to open up
our eyes, minds, and our hearts

for not everything is as
cheerful and happy as we always want them to be

we should be grateful for the rainbows and bright sunny days we have been given chance to taste,for it is the sweetness taste of life

but do not take everything as a laughing matter,for some jokes as we have see it,might have never tasted the sweet essence of laughter and sunny sunshine..

Monday, February 8, 2010


i have just realized that i have not post anything for quite sometime now is so far...normal..haha
evryday things are still the same
im stil trying to grab on hold to the fact that im siting for my diploma showcase this semester
it will be held on april..during the early, verry early period of april 2010
im scared..but i have to pull myself together and grab it!! still trying to decide what should i do for my creativity???
any ideas?
folk songs only peeps!

a lot have been happening in this so normal life of mine lately

i am right now learning how to drive a car..
illegally hahaha...and im getting quite a hang of it..
kinda cool to know that i can actually drive!!
*kesian kan?

and..i've donated my blood for the 8th time on the 4th of februsry 2010!
it was a great feeling to be able to do that..
i go t a greater feeling when i successfully convinced fazyana and marni mardiah to donate blood as well..
and it happens to be that i have my principal class on the same day
and it was amazing
i mean
i felt accepted my by "papa" to work on my cadenza!
must remember that!

lets see..
what else..
ohh...we went to see the MPO show on the 7th of february 2010..
the Children's Stories show..
it was good..
i mean, usually i will fall asleep durimg these concerts
but this time
i actually enjoyed it

while eating, i got a text message from my sister, unaizah..
she told me that she might be pregnant!!
that i might get another nephew/niece within this year!
im sooo happy to hear that!
can't wait to go spend the night at her place.
my other sister, umairah will be there too...
huhu..will bring cookies!
cant wait!

ohhh...and the bookmarks im making for my friends ar halfway done!!
hahaha..cant wait to give them to my friends..
im so happy!

and one more thing is..
two of my friends are admitted to the hospital ward yesterday
one is azim iskandar, he had an asthma attack, a bad one
he is right now in HUKM..

the other one is jasmin anis, she got denggi!!
she is in
SALAM POLIKLINIK section 19, shah alam

hope they'll both recover soon enough

and right now, i am at the computer lab,
haha..just validated my subjects..
i only knew that today was the last day for subjects validation
like a few hours ago!

well thats all for now i guess..
feels like going home and taking a bath..
or perhaps..just practice~
showcase is on its way!

Tuesday, January 19, 2010

just filling in

i am at a nearby cyber cafe at the moment
needed to scan the sonata in g minor's piano part
and email them to Mr Eric..
at the moment, i am waiting for the files to be attached to the email
it is taking quite a while..
and i thought to myself
why not post some crap on the blog..
and i am damn hungry right now
while typing and waiting
im actually listening to drive myself crazy by n'sync
gosh..this is taking too long
im hungry
and i've got class at 2pm
the song i was listening to have changed to keliru by ruth sahanaya
and my files are now attached
so..i shall stop here..and send the email to Mr Eric
pay up and go grab something to eat!

Sunday, January 17, 2010

Beneath this pillow lies the key to my release

yesterday me and lily went to sunway pyramid, to go pay her maxis bills..after that is done..she came up with  the idea to catch a movie..and i was like..why not, we were there, why not make use of the time we had,
so we went to the cinema and line up..there were lots of ppl..i mean lots of ppl..we were lucky enough to get two tickets...we got front seats..and i mean there weren't anyone else in front of us..haha!!but it was worth it..

 the movie was great..the music..the cast..the twist..the plot..its a good one..

After finally catching serial killer and occult "sorcerer" Lord Blackwood, legendary sleuth Sherlock Holmes and his assistant Dr. Watson can close yet another successful case. But when Blackwood mysteriously returns from the grave and resumes his killing spree, Holmes must take up the hunt once again. Contending with his partner's new fiancée and the dimwitted head of Scotland Yard, the dauntless detective must unravel the clues that will lead him into a twisted web of murder, deceit, and black magic - and the deadly embrace of temptress Irene Adler. Written by the massive twins

i just love Rachel McAdams <3

happily ever after

everyone is familiar
with such stories of
a beautiful princess
and the handsome prince

as the story usually goes,
the prince shall seek for
the hand of his princess,
and the princess shall for
for her knight in shinning armor
to come rescue and swept her
off her feet.

within the stories,
magical quests
monsters and dragons
evil witches
pixies and fairies
are nothing but common details

after searching far and wide,
dwelling the most horrifying of beasts
shall a true love's kiss
be set upon the lovers lips
and they'd end up happily ever after..

this is the general idea that have been inserted
into the many many fairy tales around the world
for thousands of years.

you ask any boy and they'd say
they want to be the hero and saves the girl
and the girls will say that
they've been dreaming of a prince
riding on a magnificent white horse.
and tell me, who on earth would turn away from
the idea of happily ever after?

but, does anyone truly
understands the meaning oh the phrase?
"happily ever after"
what does it means?

is it being eternally happy
and free from other emotional forms?
or does it mean differently?
or is it nothing but a phrase?

i mean..
does it really ends there?
or is it a beginning of something new?

should there be more
after the dragons and evil step-mothers?

to my thinking
"happily ever after" means "married life"
which is a whole new beginning
of something much much more
something extraordinary
 the new dwells would be
the hardship of raising a family

do u agree wih me?

i mean..
financial crisis
diaper change
teenage riot

all above
is but another form of
some kind of quest itself is it not?

a quest yet to be discovered
by the prince and princess
right after "and they lived happily, ever after"


ps..just something i wrote during class

Wednesday, January 13, 2010


Portrait Of a Friend

I can't give solutions to all of life's problems, doubts,
or fears. But I can listen to you, and together we will
search for answers.

I can't change your past with all it's heartache and pain,
nor the future with its untold stories.
But I can be there now when you need me to care.

I can't keep your feet from stumbling.
I can only offer my hand that you may grasp it and not fall.

Your joys, triumphs, successes, and happiness are not mine;
Yet I can share in your laughter.

Your decisions in life are not mine to make, nor to judge;
I can only support you, encourage you,
and help you when you ask.

I can't prevent you from falling away from friendship,
from your values, from me.
I can only pray for you, talk to you and wait for you.

I can't give you boundaries which I have determined for you,
But I can give you the room to change, room to grow,
room to be yourself.

I can't keep your heart from breaking and hurting,
But I can cry with you and help you pick up the pieces
and put them back in place.

I can't tell you who you are.
I can only love you and be your friend.


Monday, January 11, 2010

It's...Kablam! Dabush!

i went to watch the Whoa Willow musical theater
u friends are involved with the orchestra
and i've got one free ticket..

here is what Whoa Willow is about...

Title :
Whoa! Willow!! an Original Musical
Venue :
Auditorium DBKL
Dewan Bandaraya Kuala Lumpur, Jalan Raja Laut
Kuala Lumpur

the storyline
The story revolves around a young, buoyant man named Willow. In Willow's world, anyone who doesn't fall in love by thirty will be affected by the JooJoo and dies. Therefore, the people in Willow's world are obsessed with falling in love and getting married (since it's crucial to avoid death). At the early part of this story, people only know that there's a law that requires them to marry by the age of 30. Since the law has been followed so long, it became a culture, and has never been broken. But since marriage is forced upon the society, it became a "tool" so divorce cases are at large. Willow, is a victim of this dark chain reaction (his parents divorced and left him when he was still an infant), making him despise and hate the law. This is a tale of his quest to rid this world of the law and to right the wrong.

Artistic Director: Assoc. Prof. Kamran S. Ali
Director:  Mohd Adlan Ramly

Written by: Mohd. Adlan Ramly ,Ana Nur Hidayah & Muhammad Afiq Dharma

it was okay..
i mean..the music was nice..
the acting was good..
but the singing could be worked on a bit more..
the dancing was fun!!

it was great..
to see UiTM students organizing something like this..
different faculties working together..

who knows we are capable of such things..
i enjoyed it..

hope to see more of these kinds of production in the future!

Saturday, January 9, 2010

Simfoni Kasih

at last..
the 'Simfoni Kasih' event is in the past
thank you Allah..
for giving me strength to go on with the show
it was not that it was boring or anything
i mean..if i were, i still have my friends to gossip with
its sort of draining in a way that it made me so weary and tired..
im serious..i even dozed off a few times during the show..

well..another concert went okay
its time to prepare for my classes..
twinkle twinkle little star variation tak siap lagi!!

but i am determined to sleep in
in the morning~

here are the pictures..
*i did not took a lot of photos

Thursday, January 7, 2010


Today is the day i've been waiting for..
the day to meet up with my sister~

so i woke up at about 11 am,
watched an episode of supernatural
bathe and off i go to get a cab
*damned cab!! u took RM13.80 from me just like that!!!!!!!!!

got to the Shah Alam KTM station..
and get the one way ticket to MidValley
it took a while for the train to arrive..

meet up with my sister in front of the MidValley BR outlet..

went to get her stuff..
and we went to eat!!
Shushi King!!

as you can see in the photo
we ate a lot!!
and we had fun..
i got my new bag that she bought for me in Genting
i love it..
a bit girlish i guess..
kinda metrosexual
but i like it.
verry spacious..
thanks sis!
<3 ya!!

at got to get back to Shah Alam aound 5pm.
it wasn't easy..
cause she's going back to our eldest sister's place.
wish i could tag along..
i've 'simfoni kasih' to attend

Sunday, January 3, 2010

its just another sunday~

today is sunday
the last day before my classes starts
i am right now with my friends
iejad, azam, azman, bancha, munir..
haha...the best bunch so far..
i love these ppl..
the best thing that have ever happened to me
its a bless to get to know these ppl
these past few days have been fun
a great way to end the year 2009
and to welcome the year 2010
well..every good things will come to an end
they'll be going back later today
will miss them..
until we gather again..

*hello've you been?

Saturday, January 2, 2010

i see 3D!! did i?

i just got back from watching AVATAR 3D
with my friends...they were 10 of us..
it was superb!!
they who have bot seen must see quick!


i mean seriously..
the graphic is wonderful
the story was good..
the music beautiful.
the characters are alive

what more could you ask for?

even though my emotions
aren't really all up for it..for obvious reasons some might say..
and  i wasn't as uplifting as i always were at the movies
i still manage to actually enjoy the movie through it all.

so..i say u should go see AVATAR!
it's worth it

maybe it was because it felt like i went to the movie all alone
since you seem to have not realize that i was there the whole time
go ahead and ignore me all you want