Don't

Don't leave me.Don't stop caring about me.Don't look away from me.Don't stop wanting me.Don't hate me.Don't ignore me.Don't forget me.Keep on missing me.Keep on thinking about me.Look for me.Find me and hold me.Smile at me.Laugh with me.Be in love with me.The way I am with you.Don't Quit on me.

I Love You.

"you're a man!"

"you're a man!"

that was what my cousin marwan said to me after two years of not seeing each other. yes indeed, a lot have changed, i mean he himself is all grown 

up. and his sister sara, is practically a lady now.

it has been two years since they last visited us in Malaysia. and seeing them after two years made me realize even more that a lot have changed since then.

and when marwan said what he did, i was like, yeah.. i am a man now. being the yougest child, i have been so used to the term boy or kid, that i have sort of forgotten that i am 23 years old now. thats huge!

i just hope that with this age, comes a sense of maturity. i mean. i have to be able to think like a grown up now. but somehow i don't feel all that ready. am i really that much left behind? am i that much childish? am i acting like a 23 year old? or at least how a 23 year old should act like? im scared.

anyways, here are some photos that we took on marwan's camera the other day.

all photos are from my cousin's facebook

23. Years of Happy Living

August 14th 2011, 

my 23rd birthday!

i am so thankful to Allah swt. for letting me live this long. 

and thank you so much for all the birthday wishes i've received.

be it text messages, facebook wall posts, facebook chat, phone calls, face to face wishes, tumblr askbox.

thank you mama, papa, nana, amirah, athirah and adilah for the lovely bukak puasa at home. and the cake! is awesome!

and to my sisters, unaizah and umairah for the wishes!

and thank you to banchakorn. ruhiezad, azman, iswadi and zulfadhli for the lovely sahur session, and also to the cake that you have got me =D

 thank you to my sweetheart nor liyana for the surprise birthday present that i have not yet received, but is excited to!!

and last but not least, thank you for jasmin anis for the ice cream treat! =D

by the way, this is ikhwan, sahc band junior. we share the same birthday! he is now 15, and i am...well 23. haha..so happy birthday to us both!

Mary Flora Bell

Mary Flora Bell wanted to “hurt” someone.  She was an angry child, the product of an unsettled home in which chronic abuse was the norm.  She had a friend, Nora Bell, and they often did things together.  When Mary was eleven, she and Nora lured a boy to the top of an air raid shelter.  When he fell and was injured, it was thought to be an accident.  Two weeks later, the corpse of four-year-old Martin Brown was found, another assumed accident.  Then police discovered notes that indicated that someone was taking responsibility - two people, in fact, who called themselves “Fanny and Faggot.”  Then Mary show ed up at Martin’s home so she could “see him in his coffin.”  Two months passed and another local toddler, three-year-old Brian Howe, turned up missing.  When Mary suggested that he might be playing on a certain pile of concrete, searchers looked where she indicated and found his body.  He’d been strangled and his legs and stomach had been cut with a razor and scissors.  The medical examiner believed it to be the handiwork of a child.

Mary and Norma were brought in; Mary made up a story but Norma described watching Mary kill the boy.  They went to trial in 1968 in England, where Mary was convicted of two counts of manslaughter.  People called her “evil” and a “bad seed,” in part because she seemed so indifferent to the proceedings against her.  A court psychiatrist said that she was manipulative and dangerous.

 - i read this on tumblr. decided to share

source : ramirezdahmerbundy

Cinderella Story

I couldn't sleep, so I have decided to watch a movie alone while waiting for sahur. I choose A Cinderella Story. I know that i have watched the movie a thousand times, but it has never failed to entertain me. Anyways, while watching, i started to doodle, and what you see above is the results of my boredom. one thing i really like about the movie is the words they use. really nice quotes. so i used some of the quotes on my work.

“most people yearn for someone to hold them and love them all the way that they tend to forget about loving themselves and making others see who they really are”

—	Zakian Sulhi

Catch Me by Demi Lovato

Before I fall too fast
Kiss me quick
But make it last
So I can see how badly this will hurt me
When you say goodbye

Keep it sweet
Keep it slow
Let the future pass
And don't let go
But tonight I could fall too soon
To this beautiful moonlight

But your so hypnotizing
You've got me laughing while I sing
You've got me smiling in my sleep
And I can see this unraveling
Your love is where I'm falling
But please don't catch me

See this heart
Won't settle down
Like a child running scared from a clown
I'm terrified of what you do
My stomach screams just when I look at you
 
Run far away
So I can breathe
Even though your far from suffocating me
I can't set my hopes too high
Cause every hello ends with a goodbye

But your so hypnotizing
You've got me laughing while I sing
You've got me smiling in my sleep
And I can see this unraveling
Your love is where I'm falling
But please don't catch me

So now you see
Why I'm scared
I can't open up my heart without a care
But here I go
It's what I feel
And for the first time in my life I know it's real

But your so hypnotizing
You've got me laughing while I sing
You've got me smiling in my sleep
And I can see this unraveling
Your love is where I'm falling
So please don't catch me

If this is love, please don't break me
I'm giving up
So just catch me