disturbed

i have been experiencing lots of urges to cry my heart out lately
i don't know why, but i just want to.
i have tried a lot of things,
watch sad movies, listen to songs that can make me cry
but nothing works.
i don't know why, it might me the stress,
i just feel like crying.
but i just can't.
it is really disturbing

take me there

i want to be in a place where i can do almost anything i dreamed of doing.

the place where stars shine brightly in the night sky, glittering with hope.

where everyone seems to live a life with no nothing holding their back

the perfect euphoria.

 i want to be in a place where love matters, 

where there aren't any war or blood involved

a world where you can simply walk around without having to watch your back

take me to a place where there are no worries.

nothing to make you feel upset

only joy and laughter

take me where everyone that is dear to me,

so i can live life among them

seeing them always by my side

please, can you take me there? i don't know where,  

but i would really like to be there.

is there any chance of such place in existence?

i know i am not making any sense at all,

but it would be wonderful

seriously, i have to open my eyes, and stop daydreaming.

video video video

this is something that we did for our class project

i had fun doing this with wiwiey and joyce. =)

by the way, this would be my first ever video post here on blogspot =)

i know it is kind of lame, but i just wanted to share

meow meow~

kucing kat Restoran D.E.

manja wehh~

*ada sapa2 nak adopt?

a breath of air, finally

at last, today was last the last day of such a hectic week,
such a hectic semester actually, all that is left now is next thursday.
that is when i need to submit my report, my video assignment and arrangement.
and that is the day of the replacement class and the seminar.
that is all!!! now i can really breathe a little.

after thursday, is my final papers.
then it is alor setar for sure!

a very long exhausting semester

it is Thursday today
which means that tomorrow is Friday
don't worry, im not trying to pull any Rebecca Black stunt here.
but what i am trying to say is, this means that, tomorrow will be the last day of class for such a messy semester.
well, technically, i have replacement classes next Thursday, but i don't mind that too much, at least my schedule is not as tight anymore by then.

today, however, i have gone through my final studio exam, i think it was okay, considering the opportunity for me to practice my trombone is not as much as it used to be. i am thankful for that. =) and, i have managed to submit my group's mandarin video (for our third language class), which we managed to quickly record and edit (thanks tom!) by yesterday.

how i wish i can sort of celebrate, but unfortunately, i have my educational psychology case study to submit by tomorrow, and of course, the music theory quiz a.k.a. replacement class, which also happens to be tomorrow.

you see, i am taking 13 subjects this semester, (23 credit hours)
and i found out that it is pretty much a tiring semester, but i got through it..
not exceptionally good, but i managed to cope.

i have completed 

PRESENTATION SKILLS 
i have presented on the advantages of blogging and the benefits of being a blood donor

MANDARIN LANGUAGE I
learning a language is not as easy as i looks,

VOICE METHODS
i actually learn how to sing properly, and how to teach a choir group. my first singing in front of a public experience

KEYBOARD INSTRUCTION II
my fingers tend tangle each other, -_-"

MAJOR INSTRUMENT IV
my trombone playing, 5 pieces, not as easy


MALAYSIAN MUSIC ENSEMBLE II
gamelan, kosalia arini, not easy at all!!!!!

FORUM IV
performance in front of the whole music education department. almost like conference, but here, we perform and the lecturers will comment and supposedly suggest on what we can do in order to improve.

PERFORMING GROUPS IV
orchestra, in this class, the rehearsals are tiring. the brass section doesn't play in each and every song that have been picked for this semester, we (specifically the trombone+tuba section) only have parts to play in 2 songs out of 12 songs all together, we salute you string players!!

this only leaves me with

TECHNOLOGY IN MUSIC TEACHING
a tutorial video and an arrangement of my school anthem due next week


EARLY FIELD EXPERIENCES IN MUSIC
report on 10 hours of observation also due next week

FOUNDATIONS OF MUSIC EDUCATION
final written exam, must study and be all philosophical-ish

EDUCATIONAL PSYCHOLOGY
case study due tomorrow, final written exam, also must study, and be all teacher-ish, and philosophical-ish

THEORY OF MUSIC IV
quiz a.k.a replacement class tomorrow, final written exam, must study and do lots of exercises. (reminds me of math)

so, must start on my case study now! bye

thank you for,,,

sometimes i feel like i am unsure

thank you for assuring me

sometimes i feel like i am not wanted

thanks for accepting me

sometimes i feel as if the whole world is turning its back on me

thanks for embracing me

sometimes i feel like its too quiet

thanks for serenading me with songs

sometimes i feel like i am alone

thanks for always being there beside me

sometimes i feel like i am angry

thanks for soothing me

sometimes i feel like i am weak

thanks for giving me strength

whenever i have lost hope on all that is,

you will always spark the spirit inside me

and giving hope to pursue my dreams

thank you so much for my family, my friends and of course, my love

-Z.S-