doodle-ing

Rokok dan Kopiah by Mat Luthfi

"tapi aku tak boleh hidup sorang cm ni"

"memang la tak boleh, selagi kau tak bergantung pd yg tak mati"

from a youtube video by our very own Mat Luthfi.

-Rokok dan Kopiah-

i love the message he's trying to deliver.

it is indeed deep.

so here is the video

the night's song

I was wide awake while the others are already sleeping, and dreaming away. How it feels good to be at home, where all the memories of my younger years linger around freely without any distractions. How beautiful the moments were, timeless and perfect.

I was in the kitchen, when I noticed a familiar tune, it caught my ears' attention in such an overwhelming way that it touched my heart. What it was? It was the frogs croaking and the creaking sounds of the crickets.

Others might find this comical and hilarious, I mean, they are frogs and crickets!! They are supposed to be noisy and annoying. But in an unexplainable way, the sound i heard was indeed something pleasantly beautiful.

I recall how I used to be able to listen to the exact same sound almost every time after the rain have stopped pouring down from the sky, especially at night during the monsoon season. My mother would explain to me that the frogs are sad that the rain stopped and they keep calling out to the rain to pour down again.

It somehow has a calming effect on me, making me feel much more at ease and at home. I can only hope that this will be something that will always stay as it is, but knowing how the world is constantly changing and developing, I can only wish that it will at least remain that way as long as it possibly can.

I even recorded the sound, so I can take it back with me when i leave to Shah Alam. It will stay listed on my playlist.

inspiring.words

"Semakin derita menghimpit kita, semakin dekat rahmat menghampiri kita"  

- Nur Amina (Nur Kasih The Movie)

SKTU Kids 9500 Reunion - Aidilfitri 2011-

Today I celebrated Aidilfitri with my primary school friends. The kids from Sekolah Kebangsaan Taman Uda Alor Setar Kedah, Batch 1995/2000. This is our second gathering. the first one was last year (impromptu). This year's gathering was planned at the very last minute.

Thank you so much to Fatin Nabihah for letting us use her house as the place for us to get together, and to Amarah and again to Fatin for the spaghetti. Thank you to Taufik for being the first one to arrive! To Yusri Ezamdi for the drinks and for calling and inviting more friends to come over. Thank you for Mohd Azfar, Anis Syahirah and Khairul Mursyidah for snapping pictures. To Nur'Izzah and Nur Fatiehah Mahmud for the Carrot Slice (slice ka?). 

And also to Alif Ashraf, Mukhlis Mansor, Syam, Nadia, Ahmad Asmizar, Syafiq Shahbudin, Rahim, Danial Hisham, Syamil Johan, Adib and Matzul  for coming and being there together with us. And of course to the others that I may have forgotten to mention or I just simply don't know their names, thank you for tagging along with us even when you weren't from SKTU. Forgive us for we might have said things that might have hurt your feelings, but please know that we don't mean a thing out of it, simply a harmless joke to break the ice. =)

I truly appreciate it. I hope our friendship will grow even more stronger with time. InsyaALLAH.

by the way, the photos are from Mohd Azfar and Siti Sara.

Eid ul-Fitr.Eidulfitri.Aidilfitri.Eid.Hari Raya.

Selamat Hari Raya Everyone!!

I hope you can forgive me for all that I have done you wrong in the past be it intentionally or unintentionally. I would also like to wish all of you Selamat Hari Kemerdekaan Malaysia yg ke 54! I am forever thankful that I have been living in such a peaceful country (compared to most countries around the globe I find Malaysia rather soothing) for the whole of 23 years of my life that have been filled with so many colorful faces that have lighten it up with a magnificent blend.

I have lots of photos to share, but I am way too lazy to organize them now. I will post another entry wih all the updates from my Raya. Despite all the turbulence at home, most of which are caused by the kids, I find it, really peaceful, it feels so much at home. I really wish that my sister, Umairah and her hubby are here with us right now

I can't believe that I would be leaving to Shah Alam pretty soon. I am really looking forward for the trip to Bangkok next week, but at the same time, I really want to spend more time at home. Again, at the same time, I Can't wait to meet up with all my friends in Shah Alam and of course, to meet my sweetheart.

this is extremely overwhelming -_-"

yet so exciting.

Don't

Don't leave me.Don't stop caring about me.Don't look away from me.Don't stop wanting me.Don't hate me.Don't ignore me.Don't forget me.Keep on missing me.Keep on thinking about me.Look for me.Find me and hold me.Smile at me.Laugh with me.Be in love with me.The way I am with you.Don't Quit on me.

I Love You.

"you're a man!"

"you're a man!"

that was what my cousin marwan said to me after two years of not seeing each other. yes indeed, a lot have changed, i mean he himself is all grown 

up. and his sister sara, is practically a lady now.

it has been two years since they last visited us in Malaysia. and seeing them after two years made me realize even more that a lot have changed since then.

and when marwan said what he did, i was like, yeah.. i am a man now. being the yougest child, i have been so used to the term boy or kid, that i have sort of forgotten that i am 23 years old now. thats huge!

i just hope that with this age, comes a sense of maturity. i mean. i have to be able to think like a grown up now. but somehow i don't feel all that ready. am i really that much left behind? am i that much childish? am i acting like a 23 year old? or at least how a 23 year old should act like? im scared.

anyways, here are some photos that we took on marwan's camera the other day.

all photos are from my cousin's facebook

23. Years of Happy Living

August 14th 2011, 

my 23rd birthday!

i am so thankful to Allah swt. for letting me live this long. 

and thank you so much for all the birthday wishes i've received.

be it text messages, facebook wall posts, facebook chat, phone calls, face to face wishes, tumblr askbox.

thank you mama, papa, nana, amirah, athirah and adilah for the lovely bukak puasa at home. and the cake! is awesome!

and to my sisters, unaizah and umairah for the wishes!

and thank you to banchakorn. ruhiezad, azman, iswadi and zulfadhli for the lovely sahur session, and also to the cake that you have got me =D

 thank you to my sweetheart nor liyana for the surprise birthday present that i have not yet received, but is excited to!!

and last but not least, thank you for jasmin anis for the ice cream treat! =D

by the way, this is ikhwan, sahc band junior. we share the same birthday! he is now 15, and i am...well 23. haha..so happy birthday to us both!

Mary Flora Bell

Mary Flora Bell wanted to “hurt” someone.  She was an angry child, the product of an unsettled home in which chronic abuse was the norm.  She had a friend, Nora Bell, and they often did things together.  When Mary was eleven, she and Nora lured a boy to the top of an air raid shelter.  When he fell and was injured, it was thought to be an accident.  Two weeks later, the corpse of four-year-old Martin Brown was found, another assumed accident.  Then police discovered notes that indicated that someone was taking responsibility - two people, in fact, who called themselves “Fanny and Faggot.”  Then Mary show ed up at Martin’s home so she could “see him in his coffin.”  Two months passed and another local toddler, three-year-old Brian Howe, turned up missing.  When Mary suggested that he might be playing on a certain pile of concrete, searchers looked where she indicated and found his body.  He’d been strangled and his legs and stomach had been cut with a razor and scissors.  The medical examiner believed it to be the handiwork of a child.

Mary and Norma were brought in; Mary made up a story but Norma described watching Mary kill the boy.  They went to trial in 1968 in England, where Mary was convicted of two counts of manslaughter.  People called her “evil” and a “bad seed,” in part because she seemed so indifferent to the proceedings against her.  A court psychiatrist said that she was manipulative and dangerous.

 - i read this on tumblr. decided to share

source : ramirezdahmerbundy

Cinderella Story

I couldn't sleep, so I have decided to watch a movie alone while waiting for sahur. I choose A Cinderella Story. I know that i have watched the movie a thousand times, but it has never failed to entertain me. Anyways, while watching, i started to doodle, and what you see above is the results of my boredom. one thing i really like about the movie is the words they use. really nice quotes. so i used some of the quotes on my work.

“most people yearn for someone to hold them and love them all the way that they tend to forget about loving themselves and making others see who they really are”

—	Zakian Sulhi

Catch Me by Demi Lovato

Before I fall too fast
Kiss me quick
But make it last
So I can see how badly this will hurt me
When you say goodbye

Keep it sweet
Keep it slow
Let the future pass
And don't let go
But tonight I could fall too soon
To this beautiful moonlight

But your so hypnotizing
You've got me laughing while I sing
You've got me smiling in my sleep
And I can see this unraveling
Your love is where I'm falling
But please don't catch me

See this heart
Won't settle down
Like a child running scared from a clown
I'm terrified of what you do
My stomach screams just when I look at you
 
Run far away
So I can breathe
Even though your far from suffocating me
I can't set my hopes too high
Cause every hello ends with a goodbye

But your so hypnotizing
You've got me laughing while I sing
You've got me smiling in my sleep
And I can see this unraveling
Your love is where I'm falling
But please don't catch me

So now you see
Why I'm scared
I can't open up my heart without a care
But here I go
It's what I feel
And for the first time in my life I know it's real

But your so hypnotizing
You've got me laughing while I sing
You've got me smiling in my sleep
And I can see this unraveling
Your love is where I'm falling
So please don't catch me

If this is love, please don't break me
I'm giving up
So just catch me

sweet victory

that is what we often heard. "sweet victory" but not all victories are sweet, some actually come with remorse and awful feelings, so how can that ever be sweet?

perfect

how can i ever tear something so perfect? something of such delicate beauty, so innocent, so pure. a flower blooming with such radiance? so perfect. so right. how could i cut it from its roots? why can't i just leave it, let it grow even though eventually, it will fall off its tree. 


ok dh cukup mengarut..goodnight

quote

“Life is painful and messed up. It gets complicated at the worst of times, and sometimes you have no idea where to go or what to do. Lots of times people just let themselves get lost, dropping into a wide open, huge abyss. But that’s why we have to keep trying. We have to push through all that hurts us, work past all our memories that are haunting us. Sometimes the things that hurt us are the things that make us strongest. A life without experience, in my opinion, is no life at all. And that’s why I tell everyone that, even when it hurts, never stop yourself from living.”

Alysha Speer

drawing.doodling.sketching.scr​ibbling.

flaws

“I like flaws. I think they make things interesting.” 

-Sarah Dessen-

(The Truth about Forever)

true..imagine a world without them, where everything is the same. how dull would things be, so let us all embrace our flaws, it makes us who we are, makes us stand out from the others. let it be the reason for us to be loved.

MakanMakan~

haha..i am just writing now to fill my time waiting for bukak puasa.. so, i just wanted to say, SELAMAT BERPUASA to all~

*mcm ada org baca ja kan? haha

washing my hands again and again

i have this habit that i wash my hands a lot whenever i am thinking about something, literally wash them, sometimes using sopa, but most of the time, i just let the water run on both hands of mine. and i will indulge myself with the cooling sensation and calming effect it sort of give me. it is just so relaxing, almost like therapy.

but washing hands isn't the issue here, instead it is what actually makes me wash my hands that is in question.

well you see, in life, i have a bunch of people that mean a lot to me. a special group of people that i consider as most important.

i have this habit of not wanting to trouble them, because well, i just don't want to give them more trouble. i am pretty sure i can figure things out somehow.

but when i do this, it seems that i am actually hurting their feelings because to them, it seems as if they don't matter to me thus i don't involve them in anything that i do, even when the truth is i just don't want to trouble them.

so i try to involve them in things that i do. up to some point i feel bad, as if i am troubling them way too much. like i am somehow suffocating them with my problems.
nut i really do need them at the moment.

so to sum things up.
whenever i feel like i am able to to things on my own, i feel bad that i make others feel like i don't need them.

but at times when i need the most, i feel bad because i feel like i am suffocating them, strangling them to death.

so what should i do?
yeah, i know you'll probably say that i am over thinking this way too much.

i know, but, i just cant stop thinking about it. it seems never ending.

and i just have to write this down, to let it out, because i don't know who else to trouble,

what i want

i want chocolates, i want sushi, i want rice, and i want pies

at the end i just throw up and get sick.

i want a cool shirts, i want a new phone, i want a car, and i want as much money as  i can get

in the end i just end up spending more that i can afford to.

it is all deceiving me. keeping me further from the true thing that i want the most which is to be loved and cared for. to belong. and to achieve something more meaningful in life without needing to have any of those that i thought i wanted 

an attempt

this is an attempt to try and post something that people would actually read, as i have already known for quite a long time now, nobody really reads this blog, i don't blame them though,  there is nothing much to read anyway. this is because, i don't go and do exciting things all the time, i don't have awesome photos to share with the world, i am not a famous guy with gossips and controversies tied around my neck, i don't have the ability to sing and post my video for people to listen to, and i don't know how to write my entries to make them sound as if it were copied out from a book or something like that.

but i don't really care, because i am happy with this life of mine.as dull as it may be, it has managed to shape me and allow me to actually write this post. i love my life as hurtful and as amazing it could get, as it has been and as it will be. in this gray life of mine, i have found so many colorful people and experience a lot of wonderful things that have taught me valuable lessons. i have learned to love, hate, respect, remember, and work myself through it all.

okay so it seems that this post is getting no where in particular. just something that crossed my mind at the moment of boredom, as an attempt to escape bored-ness and trying to get my self sleepy enough to go to bed.

so, till next boredom, see ya~

Fact.

Here’s something I bet you don’t know:

In the late 1880s, the body of a 16-year-old girl was pulled from the Seine. She was apparently a suicide, as her body showed no marks of violence, but her beauty and her enigmatic smile led a Paris pathologist to order a plaster death mask of her face.
In the romantic atmosphere of fin de siècle Europe the girl’s face became an ideal of feminine beauty. The protagonist of Rainer Maria Rilke’s 1910 novel The Notebooks of Malte Laurids Brigge writes, “The mouleur, whose shop I pass every day, has hung two plaster masks beside his door. [One is] the face of the young drowned woman, which they took a cast of in the morgue, because it was beautiful, because it smiled, because it smiled so deceptively, as if it knew.”
Ironically, in 1958 the anonymous girl’s features were used to model the first-aid mannequin Rescue Annie, on which thousands of students have practiced CPR. Though the girl’s identity remains a mystery, her face, it’s said, has become “the most kissed face of all time.”

i found this on tumblr. so i decided it is worth sharing

troubled mind

i havent been updating this blog for a while now. i guess it is because i was so caught up with my school band. that i have no time to check up on my feelings. now that marching season is over, i feel like i have nothing to do. boredom kicks in and i start to think. and now that i have think, i realized that, i have treated a lot of people in a wrong way. and the best part is, most of the time i didn't even realize i was doing it. and that thought disturbs me.

but then again, i am just a guy. i am one normal human being, i am not perfect, so please give me room to make mistakes, don't expect too much from me, because i can't stand the pressure of letting people down. please forgive me. for doing the wrong things in life, but at least i can learn from them. with the wrongs i've done, i can see things from a better view, and try to mend my ways.

is it wrong to not be the perfect person everyone thinks you are?

f.r.i.e.n.d.s. moments

Rachel: Just turn around.
Ross: What?
Rachel: I don’t want you to see me naked!
Ross: Rachel, I’ve seen you naked a million times. I ate hot fudge off you naked. Remember, I-I sucked that mini-marshmallow out of your belly button?
Rachel: Yeah, but that was different. Y’know? I mean, we were, we were going out then, now I think it’s weird.
Ross: Rach, y’know I can see you naked any time I want.
Rachel: What?
Ross: All I have to do is close my eyes. See? (closes his eyes) Woo-hoo!!
Rachel: Ross! Stop that! I don’t want you thinking of me like that any more!
Ross: Ahh, sorry, nothing you can do about it. It’s one of my ah, rights as the ex-boyfriend. (closes his eyes again) Oop, oh yeah
Rachel: Stop it! Cut it out! Cut it out!
Ross: Okay, okay, I’m sorry, it will never happen… (closes eyes) Uh-oh! Wait a minute! Wait-wait, now there are a hundred of you and I’m the king.

thoughts

heart i wonder,
why is it that you desire?
why this feeling of longing for something?
am i not on the right path?
what have gone wrong?
what have i missed?

untitled

despite all the things people say to me, whether in front of my face and behind my back, i am willing to cheer for both, because i am proud of where i came from.but the question now is, are you ready to do so? -zakian sulhi

2011 NATCOMP 2011 - Central Zone Results

Stadium Hoki Pandamaran Klang, 9.00am

KUALA LUMPUR
Champion: SMK St John – 75.4
Runner-up: SMJK Chong Hwa – 60.5
2nd Runner-Up: SMK Cochrane – 57.0

BEST DRUM MAJOR (KUALA LUMPUR) – SMK St John - 69

SELANGOR (CATEGORY A)
Champion: SMK Seri Garing – 68.8
Runner-Up: SMK Tinggi Klang – 66.9
2nd Runner-Up: SMK Seafield – 58.3

SELANGOR (CATEGORY B)
Champion: SMK Sultan Salahuddin Aziz Shah – 49.7
Runner-Up: SMK Raja Mahadi – 46.4
2nd Runner-Up: SMK Raja Zarina – 46.0
4th: SMK Dato Hamzah – 44.6
5th: SMK Batu 8 – 42.9
6th: SMK Bukit Kuda – 34.5

BEST DRUM MAJOR (SELANGOR) – SMK Tinggi Klang
BEST CONDUCTOR (SELANGOR) – SMK Seafield
BEST UNIFORM (SELANGOR) – SMK Seafield

OPEN CATEGORY
Champion: SMK St John - 75.4
Runner-up: SMK Seri Garing - 68.8
2nd Runner-up: SMK Tinggi Klang - 66.9

BEST DRUM MAJOR (OPEN CATEGORY) – SMK Tinggi Klang - 71

photo : King Fizi

info : Malaysia National Band Competition (NATCOMP)

macam sama ja

was reading a magazine when i came across Justin Bieber's photo, and i can't stop to think that his face looks almost the same as The Vampire Diaries actor, Paul Wesley. so i googled their photos and put them side by side. don't you think they look alike?

sama kan?

NATCOMP 2011 - Southern Zone Results.

Stadium Pasir Gudang, 9.00am

1st place: Sekolah Tun Fatimah ( 70.5% )

2nd place: Pasir Gudang Band (66.8%)

3rd place: SMK Mengkibong (57%)

Best Drum Major: SMK Mengkibol

source : Voteband

STF BAND (LADY GAGA) NATCOMP 2011 REGIONALS

random

i am a narrow minded guy.

who has been trying to broaden up my mind.

so forgive me if i do things my own way every now and then.

and pardon my mistakes,

i mean hey, at least i am learning right?

and my mind isn't as narrow as it used to be

NatComp 2011

quick update
on the 2011 Natcomp

PARTICIPATING BANDS

East Malaysia Zone
28 June 2011, Stadium Miri, 9.00am

SMK St. Colomba
SMK St. Joseph Miri
SMK Chung Hua Miri
SMK Jalan Riam


Northern Zone II
25 June 2011, Stadium Bandaraya Pulau Pinang, 4.00pm

SMJK Chung Lin Butterworth
SMJK Jit Sin Bukit Mertajam
SMJK Perempuan Cina Pulau Pinang
SMJK Union
SM Sains Tun Syed Sheikh Shahabuddin
SMK (P) St. George
SMK Bagan Jaya

Northern Zone I
23 June 2011, Stadium Sultan Abd Halim, Time: TBC

SMK Sultnah Asma
Kolej Sultan Abdul Hamid
SMJK Keat Hwa - Special Performance (TBC)

East Coast Zone
21 June 2011, Stadium Gong Badak Kuala Terengganu, 9.00am

SMK Tengku Ibrahim
SMK Padang Midin
SMK Tengku Ampuan Intan
SMK Tengku Mizan Zainal Abidin
Methodist Girls School

Central Zone
18 June 2011, Stadium Hoki Pandamaran Klang, 9.00am

SMK Tinggi Klang
SMK Seri Garing
SMK Batu 8
SMK Dato' Hamzah
SMK Raja Zarina
SMK (P) Bukit Kuda
SMK Sultan Salahuddin Abd Aziz Shah
SMK Raja Mahadi
SMK La Salle Klang
SMK Seafield
SMK St. John's Institution
SMK Cochrane
SMJK Chung Hwa

Southern Zone
15 June 2011, Stadium Pasir Gudang, 9.00am

Sekolah Tun Fatimah
SM Sains Kota Tinggi
SMK Paduka Tuan
SMK Jalan Mengkibol
Pancaragam Majlis Perbandaran Pasir Gudang

choose

i wish it were as easy.

-_-"

ice creams and dreams

do you remember when we were kids?

how we used to see things in a much more less complicated ways

and dream of things that are never even possible.

we used to see things as what they are, simple. no compromises.

and we dreamed to be a superhero with cool awesome powers

or a pretty princess in a far away land.

waiting to be united with true love's kiss.

 some how, all these ridiculous ideas,

manage to cheer us up.

almost anytime.

like ice creams on a hot sunny day.

sounds peachy huh? but you have to admit,

indeed what i have said so far is true.

because if it isn't true, than you won't be smiling to yourself right now.

hahaha...gothca!!

but ice creams on a hot sunny day,

they tend to melt,

and if you don't hurry up and finish them.

we will just loose it to the sun and the dirt as they melt away.

sure we can get new ones, 

but they won't be the same as the first ones we picked.

as to dreams and opportunities.

if we continue to dream on our dreams

and not do anything as it melts with time,

we won't get anywhere.

sure we can get new dreams,

but would it make you as happy?

as satisfied as the ones you've left to melt?

-zs-

syahmi wahab

dia ni junior aku kat Kolej Sultan Abdul Hamid

the reason ia m writing this is because.

he said something about me in his blog!

so i thought that i should return the favor by

featuring him here. haha

so do stop by his page,

fun to read.

Amie Amie

click the link above

stupid

zakian, you always tend to do stupid things.

you say stupid things that hurt others.

you make stupid decisions that caused unnecessary damages.

the best part is, you don't even know that you did all these.

and you didn't even mean to do so.
you just do.

zakian, why have you become so bitter.

all the sarcasm, really, it USED to be fun.

but now, it is just mean.

please stop before you turn into something really mean

and hurt more people.

zakian, grow up,

you are 23 this year.

it is a lot to take.

yes. but it is life.

so please.

take sometime to look back at yourself and think

are you ready?

10 years.

It does not seem that long ago when we first enrolled in Sultan Abdul Hamid College together, coming form different parts of Kedah. Some I have met before. Some are complete strangers. But somehow, we managed to become friends. We sort of grew up together. going through changes in life. 

Now, we have changed so much. some have finished with their studies. Some still have a long way to go. Some have found their calling, some are still searching. Some have been lost for a while, some have always been there. 

Some are just the same, and some have completely changed.

Can you believe it? 10 years ago. That long we have known each other.

Seriously guys, 10.

Flattered.

i was browsing through my posts and i cam across this comment. this sort of made my day. thank you Reez

Teacher?

I was reading my sister's blog and I came across this post. 

Zarra and Imran are my sister's children. How adorable, how innocent can kids be.

it made me think that, maybe I like to become a teacher after all.

working with kids, helping them through various stages of life,

developing their talent.

It is not and easy task, although most people may see teaching as

something that is not worth it, I believe it is, I may not be ready yet, but I will work hard for it.

i mean, If it is written for me to be a teacher, then I will be a good one.

InsyaALLAH.

By the way, i am now in Alor Setar, beloved hometown. 

It is really hot here. I sweat while doing nothing.

So that will be all for now, 

Here is the link to my sister, Unaizah's blog,

Memories Experiences Thoughts Hopes Dreams

You can visit her page if you like to find out about

some interesting places to lepak and eat around Malaysia.

believe me, she has good taste in food.

 

baloq liat

haha..ada report nak kena siapkan, tapi malaih gila kot.
bukannya susah pn, tapi, aihh..perlu motivasi.,
ok bye~

disturbed

i have been experiencing lots of urges to cry my heart out lately
i don't know why, but i just want to.
i have tried a lot of things,
watch sad movies, listen to songs that can make me cry
but nothing works.
i don't know why, it might me the stress,
i just feel like crying.
but i just can't.
it is really disturbing

take me there

i want to be in a place where i can do almost anything i dreamed of doing.

the place where stars shine brightly in the night sky, glittering with hope.

where everyone seems to live a life with no nothing holding their back

the perfect euphoria.

 i want to be in a place where love matters, 

where there aren't any war or blood involved

a world where you can simply walk around without having to watch your back

take me to a place where there are no worries.

nothing to make you feel upset

only joy and laughter

take me where everyone that is dear to me,

so i can live life among them

seeing them always by my side

please, can you take me there? i don't know where,  

but i would really like to be there.

is there any chance of such place in existence?

i know i am not making any sense at all,

but it would be wonderful

seriously, i have to open my eyes, and stop daydreaming.

video video video

this is something that we did for our class project

i had fun doing this with wiwiey and joyce. =)

by the way, this would be my first ever video post here on blogspot =)

i know it is kind of lame, but i just wanted to share

meow meow~

kucing kat Restoran D.E.

manja wehh~

*ada sapa2 nak adopt?

a breath of air, finally

at last, today was last the last day of such a hectic week,
such a hectic semester actually, all that is left now is next thursday.
that is when i need to submit my report, my video assignment and arrangement.
and that is the day of the replacement class and the seminar.
that is all!!! now i can really breathe a little.

after thursday, is my final papers.
then it is alor setar for sure!

a very long exhausting semester

it is Thursday today
which means that tomorrow is Friday
don't worry, im not trying to pull any Rebecca Black stunt here.
but what i am trying to say is, this means that, tomorrow will be the last day of class for such a messy semester.
well, technically, i have replacement classes next Thursday, but i don't mind that too much, at least my schedule is not as tight anymore by then.

today, however, i have gone through my final studio exam, i think it was okay, considering the opportunity for me to practice my trombone is not as much as it used to be. i am thankful for that. =) and, i have managed to submit my group's mandarin video (for our third language class), which we managed to quickly record and edit (thanks tom!) by yesterday.

how i wish i can sort of celebrate, but unfortunately, i have my educational psychology case study to submit by tomorrow, and of course, the music theory quiz a.k.a. replacement class, which also happens to be tomorrow.

you see, i am taking 13 subjects this semester, (23 credit hours)
and i found out that it is pretty much a tiring semester, but i got through it..
not exceptionally good, but i managed to cope.

i have completed 

PRESENTATION SKILLS 
i have presented on the advantages of blogging and the benefits of being a blood donor

MANDARIN LANGUAGE I
learning a language is not as easy as i looks,

VOICE METHODS
i actually learn how to sing properly, and how to teach a choir group. my first singing in front of a public experience

KEYBOARD INSTRUCTION II
my fingers tend tangle each other, -_-"

MAJOR INSTRUMENT IV
my trombone playing, 5 pieces, not as easy


MALAYSIAN MUSIC ENSEMBLE II
gamelan, kosalia arini, not easy at all!!!!!

FORUM IV
performance in front of the whole music education department. almost like conference, but here, we perform and the lecturers will comment and supposedly suggest on what we can do in order to improve.

PERFORMING GROUPS IV
orchestra, in this class, the rehearsals are tiring. the brass section doesn't play in each and every song that have been picked for this semester, we (specifically the trombone+tuba section) only have parts to play in 2 songs out of 12 songs all together, we salute you string players!!

this only leaves me with

TECHNOLOGY IN MUSIC TEACHING
a tutorial video and an arrangement of my school anthem due next week


EARLY FIELD EXPERIENCES IN MUSIC
report on 10 hours of observation also due next week

FOUNDATIONS OF MUSIC EDUCATION
final written exam, must study and be all philosophical-ish

EDUCATIONAL PSYCHOLOGY
case study due tomorrow, final written exam, also must study, and be all teacher-ish, and philosophical-ish

THEORY OF MUSIC IV
quiz a.k.a replacement class tomorrow, final written exam, must study and do lots of exercises. (reminds me of math)

so, must start on my case study now! bye

thank you for,,,

sometimes i feel like i am unsure

thank you for assuring me

sometimes i feel like i am not wanted

thanks for accepting me

sometimes i feel as if the whole world is turning its back on me

thanks for embracing me

sometimes i feel like its too quiet

thanks for serenading me with songs

sometimes i feel like i am alone

thanks for always being there beside me

sometimes i feel like i am angry

thanks for soothing me

sometimes i feel like i am weak

thanks for giving me strength

whenever i have lost hope on all that is,

you will always spark the spirit inside me

and giving hope to pursue my dreams

thank you so much for my family, my friends and of course, my love

-Z.S-