sweet victory

that is what we often heard. "sweet victory" but not all victories are sweet, some actually come with remorse and awful feelings, so how can that ever be sweet?

perfect

how can i ever tear something so perfect? something of such delicate beauty, so innocent, so pure. a flower blooming with such radiance? so perfect. so right. how could i cut it from its roots? why can't i just leave it, let it grow even though eventually, it will fall off its tree. 


ok dh cukup mengarut..goodnight

quote

“Life is painful and messed up. It gets complicated at the worst of times, and sometimes you have no idea where to go or what to do. Lots of times people just let themselves get lost, dropping into a wide open, huge abyss. But that’s why we have to keep trying. We have to push through all that hurts us, work past all our memories that are haunting us. Sometimes the things that hurt us are the things that make us strongest. A life without experience, in my opinion, is no life at all. And that’s why I tell everyone that, even when it hurts, never stop yourself from living.”

Alysha Speer

drawing.doodling.sketching.scr​ibbling.

flaws

“I like flaws. I think they make things interesting.” 

-Sarah Dessen-

(The Truth about Forever)

true..imagine a world without them, where everything is the same. how dull would things be, so let us all embrace our flaws, it makes us who we are, makes us stand out from the others. let it be the reason for us to be loved.

MakanMakan~

haha..i am just writing now to fill my time waiting for bukak puasa.. so, i just wanted to say, SELAMAT BERPUASA to all~

*mcm ada org baca ja kan? haha

washing my hands again and again

i have this habit that i wash my hands a lot whenever i am thinking about something, literally wash them, sometimes using sopa, but most of the time, i just let the water run on both hands of mine. and i will indulge myself with the cooling sensation and calming effect it sort of give me. it is just so relaxing, almost like therapy.

but washing hands isn't the issue here, instead it is what actually makes me wash my hands that is in question.

well you see, in life, i have a bunch of people that mean a lot to me. a special group of people that i consider as most important.

i have this habit of not wanting to trouble them, because well, i just don't want to give them more trouble. i am pretty sure i can figure things out somehow.

but when i do this, it seems that i am actually hurting their feelings because to them, it seems as if they don't matter to me thus i don't involve them in anything that i do, even when the truth is i just don't want to trouble them.

so i try to involve them in things that i do. up to some point i feel bad, as if i am troubling them way too much. like i am somehow suffocating them with my problems.
nut i really do need them at the moment.

so to sum things up.
whenever i feel like i am able to to things on my own, i feel bad that i make others feel like i don't need them.

but at times when i need the most, i feel bad because i feel like i am suffocating them, strangling them to death.

so what should i do?
yeah, i know you'll probably say that i am over thinking this way too much.

i know, but, i just cant stop thinking about it. it seems never ending.

and i just have to write this down, to let it out, because i don't know who else to trouble,