blank

as for now..
i feel nothing
i dont think about much
im not sure what is going to happen
im not o sure whats going on
im just living my life as it is
day by day

is that a good thing?
i honestly dont think so
haha
but truth be told
i am worried
i am thinking about a lot of things
well..im just hoping that
in time the puzzle pieces will fall into place
and i will be able to see the picture clearly

trying to grab hold of the situation

"Ras - merujuk kepada kelompok manusia yang mempunyai ciri-ciri persamaan dari segi fizikal, warna kulit, sifat biologi...."

aihh..somehow i can't seem to absorb the fact that i am actually writing all those crap in my note book..i mean..i was supposed to be done with school, classes etc etc...

but here i am anyway writing notes into my book..educational notes that is..=)

yep..this can only mean one thing..i have decided to actually further my studies to a whole new level..

as some may know..i am now a bachelor in music education student..and i am proud of that fact!!

although its back to waking up early in the morning, wearing formal wear on mondays, and having to see the security guards everyday, i actually am, honestly, very much indeed, excited to start being a student again!!

truth be told..i really miss my times on genting highlands..but..i have to think about my future right?

haha..well..classes have started, and is going well so far..i actually enjoy writing and scribbling notes on pieces of paper..hahaha...*rasa pandai~

hahaha...so i really hope that this feeling will go on till the end of my degree course!

well..thats it for now..

because i am actually in my classroom waiting for our lecturer who seemed to be missing for the last hour..and im starting to get tired of waiting around..so im gonna leave..

till next time =)

-mental note to self - post something on the recent Natcomp =)

stuck.

it has been a while since i post anything at all here..and a lot have happened..i have a draft that concludes everything..but its not yet done..i will post it some other time..

right now.i am feeling scared and confused..im so damn happy when i found out that i have completed my diploma program..and i think, my pointer isn't that bad after all

but the thing is,im not sure if i am ready to further my studies to the next level of education..im not sure whether this is what i really want..i mean..what if i screw up? what would i do then? what would my parents feel? im just scared..im not that all talented like my friends, im not that bright..

but,  what would i do..if i didn't continue my studies?with the career world right now, education certs are damn important....i am really really scared..what do i do?!!!!!!!!!!!!!

why can't u c?

some ppl should really know that they dont have what it takes
and im talking to this person singing at the patio bar behind baskin robbins here at first world plaza
it is annoying!

i mean these ppl sings every monday!
i think they are filling in for the other group who sings every other nights
note that the other group are way better then these ppl..
im not sayin that im a good performer..
but..they are just pushing themselves too hard!
and i dont think they rehearse much
since they always end up coming in earlier or later than they were supposed to

and the bad part is..most of the songs they perform are those songs that i like..
and im starting to not like them..aishh..

not much point here..just babbling
bye~

im way up in the clouds..

it has been a while since i last posted anything here

truth be told,, i just don't feel like posting anything

up to this very moment 

soo..here goes

im working right now..just for a while though..

as my sister needs extra hands here at 

the First World's Baskin Robbins

it is fun even when the ice creams

can be really cruel to you and your wrist.

=(

i am having a great time so far

spending time with my sister

haishh..she's been through a lot..

* be strong dear sister!!

basically i wake up everyday

walk to the store

scoop sweet delicious treats for the 

sometimes annoying customers (kdg2 tu rasa mcm nk sepak ja)

who came from everywhere

mostly arabians, indians and chinese..

they r so annoying..haha..maybe it is just the way they are right

who am i to judge

i mean

for all i know i might be an annoying customer to someone..

hahaha

after the work is done..

get back home..

wash up (sejukkkk!!!!!!!)

and eat while wathing something on the laptop with my sister

mostly Gossip Girl =))))

but as everything goes..

my time up here is comming to an end..

but who knows

i might just continue..

hahaha

but honestly i miss alor setar and my friends!!!

hahah

sabaq sat nohh..nak balik dah ~

it is okay

sometimes we have to tell ourselves that it is okay to be scared instead of putting on a brave face and acting like a hero all the time..

we need to learn that it is okay to shed a tear whenever we feel down and sad..instead of covering up our hurt with laughter and a smile on our faces..

we have to understand that it is okay for us to feel vulnerable because sometimes it is better to open up to these feelings rather that suppressing them all the time and end up exploding like a ticking time bomb

we have to know that it is better to be able to show the side of us that we try to keep secret rather than hurting ourselves even more by hiding and pretending to be okay

i keep telling myself this..yet i sometimes fail to do so

another sleepless night

it has been ages since i last post an entry in this blog...
and i know that i dont really post anything of much importance to this blog...i mean..i started to write in here just because i was having trouble sleeping one fateful night..haha..as sleepless as i am at the moment.

well..im not going through any  emotional tides right now..as for now..im just at ease..no more tense im my system..
hahaha

im back to staying up late at night..watching movies or just surfing the net.haha...and waking up late..because i have no more commitment at the moment..

my classes are over..
i have performed for 30 mins for my showcase,,well..i guess you can say im pretty much free right now..i finally have time to keep the house in place..after few weeks, or month of living in a wreck!

i really wish i can get back to alor setar..
i miss home badly!!!

but my bank account is pretty much empty right now..

hahaha...

a lot have been happening in my life since i posted my last entry...

finished my subjects in UiTM..

done with diploma showcase (o know i keep on saying this again and again..)

i hugged my father on his birthday

had dinner with my family together with lily..

have a new obsession with pet fishes!! in which i manage to somehow influence my friends to love fishes as well..

i mean so much ahave been happening..i don't really remember everything..but yeah..a lot have been happening..hahaha..

as much as things are moving, i still miss the good old days, where life is much. much simpler..haha..

ohh...i mis hanging out with my friends as well...must meet up soon!!