Menari cuma kita yg tau

I was doing some work when suddenly this scene from an Indonesian movie Ada Apa Dengan Cinta? crossed my mind. In the scene, the heroin, Cinta was reading a poem to her friends. Here is the poem. 

"Ketika tunas ini tumbuh

Serupa tubuh yang mengakar
Setiap nafas yang terhembus adalah kata
Angan, debur dan emosi
Bersatu dalam jubah terpautan
Tangan kita terikat
Lidah kita menyatu
Maka apa terucap adalah sabda pendita ratu
Ahh.. diluar itu pasir diluar itu debu
Hanya angin meniup saja
Lalu terbang hilang tak ada
Tapi kita tetap menari
Menari cuma kita yg tau
Jiwa ini tandu maka duduk saja
Maka akan kita bawa
Semua
Karena..
Kita..
Adalah..
SATU"

- 

Rako Prijanto

*this is random i know.

Random rant

I can't really fathom the fact that I am no longer studying. I have yet to decide what to do with my future. Should I continue learning on a higher level? If so, where should I go? Thinking about all the costs for me to continue studying is really discouraging me. But I really do want to. Some say go get myself a job first. Get your own money and then continue. But I have the feeling that once I'm working, I won't have the same drive to study anymore.

Option number two, start working. Be the greatest teacher that I can ever be. But to do that I would have to wait to be placed in a school that I have no idea about. And that scares me too.

I did got an offer to teach. But that would mean that I would have to live in Shah Alam, but my housemates and I have decided to let go of our place. And I really do need to learn how to drive so that I will get my own driving license so that I won't be much of a trouble to others. I know some of them don't mind, but I really do feel bad.

All this has been inside my head lately. But that is not all there is in there. I'm thinking about my parents and their health. They are not as strong as they used to be. Living here with them not earning money is making me feel like such a burden. And seeing most of my friends already filling their own pockets is such a pressure. some have even started their own little family while I'm here alone and single.

Like the words in the famous Disney animated movie Tangled, "When will my life begin?"

As for now, all I am able to do is wait patiently and figure out what the next step is. I can only pray that things will fall into place.

Yunalis Zarai

A few days back I saw people posting their drawings which are based on the famous Yunalis Zarai on Facebook with the hashtag #YunaFanArt.

It inspired me and this is what I have came up with.

I happy with how it turned out. I hope Yuna herself likes it as much.

But I kept thinking though. Should I color it?

Personality Test

Lets try this personality test!

I was browsing through my FB timeline when I saw this test.. It is interesting..

so here is what you have to do

Look at the trees and choose the one that is immediately most appealing to you.

Don’t think about it too long, just choose, see what hits you first, and find out what your choice says about your personality, have FUN and share your choice in the comments. Thank You.

The results . . . 

1. You are a generous and moral (not to confuse with moralizing) person. You always work on self-improvement. You are very ambitious and have very high standards. People might think that communicating with you is difficult, but for you, it isn't easy to be who you are. You work very hard but you are not in the least selfish. You work because you want to improve the world. You have a great capacity to love people until they hurt you. But even after they do. . . you keep loving. Very few people can appreciate everything you do as well as you deserve. 

2. You are a fun, honest person. You are very responsible and like taking care of others. You believe in putting in an honest day's work and accept many work-related responsibilities. You have a very good personality and people come to trust you easily. You are bright, witty and fast-thinking. You always have an interesting story to tell. 

3.You are a smart and thoughtful person. You are a great thinker. Your thoughts and ideas are the most important. You like to think about your theories and views alone. You are an introvert. You get along with those who likes to think and learn. You spend a lot of time, thinking about morality. You are trying to do what is right, even if the majority of society does not agree with you. 

4. You are perceptive and philosophical person. You are a unique, one soul of your kind. Next to you there's no one even slightly similar to you. You are intuitive and a bit quirky. You are often misunderstood, and it hurts you. You need personal space. Your creativity needs to be developed, it requires respect of others. You are a person who clearly sees the light and dark sides of life. You are very emotional. 

5. You are self-assured and in charge. You are very independent. Your guiding principle in life is 'I'll do it my way.'. You are very self-reliant and know how to stay strong for yourself and the people you Love. You know exactly what you want and are not afraid of pursuing your dreams. The only thing you demand from people is honesty. You are strong enough to accept the truth. 

6. You are kind and sensitive. People relate to you very well. You have many friends and you love helping them. You have this warm and bright aura that makes people feel good when they are around you. Every day, you think about what you can do to improve yourself. You want to be interesting, insightful and unique. More than anybody else in the world, you need to love. You are even ready to love those who don't love you back. 

7. You are happy and unflappable. You are a very sensitive and understanding person. You are a great listener who know how to be non-judgmental. You believe that everybody has their own journey in life. You are open to new people and events. You are highly resistant to stress and rarely worry. Normally, you are very relaxed. You always manage to have a good time and never lose your way. 

8. You are charming and energetic. You are a fun person who knows how to make people laugh. You live in a state of harmony with the universe. You are spontaneous and enthusiastic. You never say no to an adventure. Often, you end up surprising and even shocking people. But that's just how you are. . . You always remain true to yourself. You have many interests and if something proves of interest to you, you will not rest until you acquire a profound knowledge of this area. 

9. You are optimistic and lucky. You believe that life is a gift and you try to achieve as much as possible and put this gift to the best use possible. You are very proud of your achievements. You are ready to stick by the people you care about through thick and thin. You have a very healthy approach to life. The glass is (at least) half full for you. You use any opportunity to forgive, learn, and grow because you believe that life is too short to do otherwise.

Progress

It is good to see most of my friends progressing with their lives.

Career. Education. Family.

I hope i'll be there someday.

Keep on smiling and hope for the best.

Dreams of Reality

Somehow it seems like everyone is living their dreams while I'm stuck here in reality.

I'm not complaining or anything, but I just want to be somewhere doing something. Going places, living new experiences. I guess all I can say now is, all is in good time.

For now, I will be here, dreaming in my reality.

Rindu

I really miss my friends. My groupies, the people that I used to spend so much time with before. Life seems to move so fast for them. I can't seem to keep up. Deep in my heart. I know that they do care. Even when they don't always show it.

So here is to friends and friendship.